Death has been stalking me. Not my death, though. It has been fluttering it’s wings around people I care about. In the last few months I have lost 2 friends, several people I know have lost loved ones, and my friend Sybil is still in hospice experiencing an extended farewell to this world.
I worry that people will start to avoid me and am at a loss sometimes for how to respond to the simple question, “How are you?” It’s not that I am all doom and gloom. I process my feelings privately, focus on gratitude, and seem to be recovering quickly. But, it just keeps happening.
So I’ve been thinking about the limited time we have on earth and how to live more fully. When someone mentioned doing a journaling practice around the book, “A Year to Live” by Stephen Levine it caught my interest. I remember considering this years ago, but decided the time wasn’t right. Maybe it is now.
I ordered the book at the library and coincidentally the author himself passed away on that day. I decided not to consider that a bad sign.
“A Year to Live” is about living life as if you knew when your expiration date is. It is about embracing life and making choices that enhance the time you have. It is about becoming grounded in what matters most to you and amplifying what you love.
What would that look like for you? What would you change or do if you only had one year to live?
Would you finally go after your dream? Heal relationships? Forgive? Travel? Spend more time in nature? Relax? Serve the world in a big way? Be more connected to the ones you love?
I am creating my own personal program around this, not necessarily following the book and can already feel things shifting inside. My focus is more on how I want to live life, what is most meaningful, and, I seem to be clearing out some things that didn’t feel worth my precious time.
- I let go of a book I was reading and not enjoying fully
- I spent a morning gardening instead of working on the computer
- My conversations are seeming more precious
- The urge to do another round of decluttering and organizing is getting stronger
- I seem to be moving forward gracefully on some projects that have been on my to do list for a while.
The process I am creating includes practices related to awareness, authenticity, and being connected to my feelings. More will come as it evolves.
I intend to write every day. The first journal entry will be day 365 of my yearlong process and I will count down from there. The next day will be day 364, then day 363, until I get to day 1. I don’t know what will happen after that, but I believe that my life will be fuller and richer for having done this process. And, since I will be vibrantly alive, I may decide to do it all over again. Or, something totally different.
I will be starting this journaling journey soon and would like to invite you to join me. I haven’t thought out the details yet, but would love to share this adventure of living fully with whoever feels called to join in.
If it speaks to you and you want to be included or have questions email me or contact me here.
Let’s live this year wholeheartedly together.